running

I want to be a runner. I have a very strong desire to train to run. Yeah, sure, I jog a bit now. I can sometimes make it 3 miles, sometimes. But my body is feeling this urge to do more. Well, then, just do it, you may be thinking. The thing is, it takes time and I have two small children, who, to be honest, I don't want to push in a stroller the whole time. Part of what I love about running is the escape I feel and often my interaction with God through it. But to really commit and train for more and not take time away from my family, I'd need to go early in the morning before my husband goes to work. I used to work out early in the am, back in the day, and as hard as it was to actually get out of bed, I LOVED it! My other problem is that I really would prefer a running partner, someone who would challenge and push me and help with accountability. Getting out of bed for myself would be so easy to skip out on, but knowing someone else was counting on me to meet them would be much harder to "cop out" on. Many runners I know of, have running partners or run with groups. I'm not sure if I'm ready for a group, nor will a group most likely, work on my timeframe. Hmmm, maybe I'm just a little too selfish about this whole thing, or maybe it's just not meant to be right now in my life. I've already propositioned two friends. One laughed and the other is not so sure. What will come of my dilemma? ......... I tried to listen to God's answer, but maybe it's not high on the ol' priority list or maybe I have the earplugs in that keep me from hearing anything that isn't the answer I want.